Under my skin was an open heart
Breathe and make some candles ⭐️
Christmas and its joyful "distractions" couldn't come at a better time. And eventually, there will no longer be distractions but simply life and its perks.
Hiding in the blue
We decided to take the kids out this weekend and as Bekonscot Model Village and Railway is exactly where you think of going when life is down the shitters shit, that's where we went.
It was lovely to see the kids' smiles and excitement. And for a few hours even we forgot about everything. We shared some heartfelt smiles and jokes. Banter and making fun of each other has always helped us in
different situations, and even at this time, it carries us forward.
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A transition from sadness to anger, from anger to feelings of betrayal, followed by not caring and back to sadness again.
Yesterday we had some friends over for dinner and today I've started a new project. Looking forward to life's little things. Things that will take me back to wholeness again, little steps at a time.
Don't set yourself on fire to keep someone else warm.
The hurt I have caused is immense. A bomb has gone off and the blurred air is yet to settle because the hurt I continue to cause in my recovery might be even worst.
I wake up in the mornings with a chunk of grief in my stomach. While thankful for what I have.
Does that even make sense? Probably not.
Does that even make sense? Probably not.
They say you should live through the pain and not beat around it, so that's what I'm doing.
What's coming next in our lives is exactly what I (we) need. And with that, I hope I can find my way back.
Power over me
I am living through the worst time of my life.
One day I will write about it here, for me.
Lies are being told about me but
I stay in 100% truth surrounded by friends and family who know exactly what happened. I am not embarrassed about my emotions, only for the actions that were made because of them.
I am thankful for my life and fearless of the future. Massive change is coming, both internally and externally . We all need a fresh start sometimes. But it can only happen if you are true to yourself and others.
