Book 10 of 2021
A little late here but it goes under 2021.
The Push by Ashley Audrian. 4/5 ⭐️
This thriller/mystery made me forget everything around me. I flew through chunks at a time. I craved it when I was busy with my daily duties.
We follow Blythe through a period of 15+ years. She has 2 children, one who at times is acting strange and unpredictable for reasons unknown. Sometimes death follows her. It's a fragile relationship with resentment
and despair. But also love. A silent, great deal of it. We also get some intense chapters from Blythe's grandmother's time in the 50's which I enjoyed.
The ending was perfect and unexpected and for that I would love for there to be a second book!
Under my skin was an open heart
Breathe and make some candles ⭐️
Christmas and its joyful "distractions" couldn't come at a better time. And eventually, there will no longer be distractions but simply life and its perks.
Hiding in the blue
We decided to take the kids out this weekend and as Bekonscot Model Village and Railway is exactly where you think of going when life is down the shitters shit, that's where we went.
It was lovely to see the kids' smiles and excitement. And for a few hours even we forgot about everything. We shared some heartfelt smiles and jokes. Banter and making fun of each other has always helped us in
different situations, and even at this time, it carries us forward.
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A transition from sadness to anger, from anger to feelings of betrayal, followed by not caring and back to sadness again.
Yesterday we had some friends over for dinner and today I've started a new project. Looking forward to life's little things. Things that will take me back to wholeness again, little steps at a time.
Don't set yourself on fire to keep someone else warm.
The hurt I have caused is immense. A bomb has gone off and the blurred air is yet to settle because the hurt I continue to cause in my recovery might be even worst.
I wake up in the mornings with a chunk of grief in my stomach. While thankful for what I have.
Does that even make sense? Probably not.
Does that even make sense? Probably not.
They say you should live through the pain and not beat around it, so that's what I'm doing.
What's coming next in our lives is exactly what I (we) need. And with that, I hope I can find my way back.
Power over me
I am living through the worst time of my life.
One day I will write about it here, for me.
Lies are being told about me but
I stay in 100% truth surrounded by friends and family who know exactly what happened. I am not embarrassed about my emotions, only for the actions that were made because of them.
I am thankful for my life and fearless of the future. Massive change is coming, both internally and externally . We all need a fresh start sometimes. But it can only happen if you are true to yourself and others.
Book 9 of 2021
Playing Nice by JP Delaney 4,5/5
What would you have done if someone knocked on your door and told you that your 3 year old isn't your biological child, and that the child you gave birth to is living with another family. A swap happened at the hospital and now the families have to deal with the situation...
as it happens, in very different ways.
This book was so captivating. I flew through the 400 something pages in less than a week. I loved the twists and turns and will recommend it to anyone looking for a subtle thrill. :)
Book 8 of 2021
A house at the bottom of a lake - 2/5 stars
This is a story about two people who go on a date in a canoe. They explore the lakes and stumble upon a house at the bottom of the lake. The house is not floating neither is the furniture or items inside it. From here we
get to know the characters and see their relationship evolve. The book is about falling in love with a tad of horror.
For me it wasn't up to the hype, and I'm PRETTY sure I've wasted my time lol. The only good this was that it was a short story! :)
high above the world I used to know
Have had a very needed, short and lovely holiday with the family outside of Coventry. It was as expected spent most of the time in the swimming pool. We also squeezed in a Zoo visit and a SeaLife adventure.
It was full speed but somehow very relaxing.
Next summer I would love take one of those cabin holidays near a lake where we can make our meals on an open fire, jump in the water and breath fresh air. My body craves it. :)
Sometimes it fades away
Love having met another long lost swede near my area. These spontaneous meet ups are worth gold(medals) and more, with laughter and chats about anything and everything until the store kicks you out at 5pm. It’s Sunday
after all and in England that’s Jesus’ day so you better head home. Emma ended up with pre-packed cheese and bread sticks for dinner. 😁 Happy Sunday!
If your dreams don’t scare you they are too small
Osterley Park is something else. I used to walk here with Olivia in the buggy every week. I would make sure I went on rainy days as well for the full unplugged childhood experience kids in big cities don’t always get. On
rainy days we were the only ones along with our neighbours out and about, every single time.
Book 6 of 2021
Regretting you - Colleen - 3/5 stars
Having started to blog about the books I read in 2021 I shall continue even if my general blogging is in hibernation.
This one didnt take me long to finish but I have to say it put me to sleep more times than I will admit. I am over the teenage love romance and as this filled half the book it just wasnt for me. Still, okay story line but could have had at least
ONE twist(?) to make it more of a page turner.
We follow from 2 perspectives- Morgan a young mother and her teenage daughter Clara. One day Morgan’s husband and sister are in a car accident. The aftermath of this incident and whatever news are surfaced
after rushing to the hospital is immensely hard and we get to see how things unfold thereafter.
Easter and other destinations
behind her favourite tree
In the spring when the sun starts to share those extra rays of light my fingers start to itch. They are’nt that green, yet, but for the last 2 years I have had an extra interest in my garden and last year I succeeded in my vegetable patch. This year I’m going all flowers and leaving the vegetables to the farmers.
Two sweet neighbours showed me a garden centre in the area and I came home with some flowery fluff to plant.
a birthday
Yesterday you turned 9. Halfway to 18. Half a childhood. I hope you’ll forever know that I have always done and will continue to do my all to make it the best one for you.
Happy birthday sweetheart! I love you with all of my being. Love, mamma.
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like a lover’s embrace
You know you’re completely nerding out on your books when you start taking pictures with them haha.
My love for books could not have come back at a better time though. It was around March last year. Which is so timed it’s almost a joke. Time of isolation(ish) calls for time spent reading. Or you
are basically wasting your time! (;
floating ahead of time
Every morning I pack orders and go to the post office but today I wasn't satisfied and felt friskier than usual. So I took the car to big Tesco. Completely not necessary but that's the kind of wild we're going for in these times. ;)
I came home with a few things not worth mentioning and I felt happy. Mostly because -any time spent in my car- I'm like a new person. Music, me, myself and my thoughts is all I need sometimes.
Day by day we are getting to the end of lockdown and we do small things to make those days a little easer. However we can.
This came in the post today. It got its perks being in a book club ♥
there is no such thing as wrong or forbidden there is just beauty
They say schools might reopen in March, just in time for Olivia's birthday.
Lately both our girls have expressed how they miss school and friends.
Of course I understand them. As much as it's nice to be at home and "relax" it get's boring AF even for little minds.
Rio also just got into a local nursery and for his little restless soul it will do him so good.
Also I'm desperate to meet new people in the area and through my child's school/nursery, this is the easiest way.
Lately both our girls have expressed how they miss school and friends.
Of course I understand them. As much as it's nice to be at home and "relax" it get's boring AF even for little minds.
Rio also just got into a local nursery and for his little restless soul it will do him so good.
Also I'm desperate to meet new people in the area and through my child's school/nursery, this is the easiest way.
just be
It's been a time of temporary routines. Bubble baths in the morning, eating in the sofa, going to bed way after bedtime, going to bed before bedtime. Going for crazy long walks because we can.
I do enjoy the little things but I can't wait for life to continue as it should and for my kids to flourish in the outside world. Kids adjust easily and so do I but I just want to see them having fun with their friends again. And I miss my coffee dates with my friends from far away.
I do enjoy the little things but I can't wait for life to continue as it should and for my kids to flourish in the outside world. Kids adjust easily and so do I but I just want to see them having fun with their friends again. And I miss my coffee dates with my friends from far away.
Fresh flowers are scattered around the house because it adds a bit of spring. A bit of hope.
